Ok wow! It's been FOREVER since i've posten.......But something was really laid on my heart this morning, and I just wanted to share it with anyone who still may be on xanga!

So, there are times when life really doesn't make sense. And we sit there and wonder, why do we do the things we do. Paul even said that in Romans, how he does what he doesn't want to do. How awesome that our Savior knows that, and gives us grace still. He loves us enough to use us despite of ourselves, and to remain faithful even when we are not.

I was sitting in a meeting this morning, for some older folks, and they sang victory in Jesus. I know it's an old song, one that we don't sing much. But while we were singing the 2nd verse really stuck out to me which says:

I heard about His healing,
Of His cleansing pow'r revealing.
How He made the lame to walk again
And caused the blind to see;
And then I cried, "Dear Jesus,
Come and heal my broken spirit,"
And somehow Jesus came and bro't
To me the victory.

O victory in Jesus,
My Savior, forever.
He sought me and bought me
With His redeeming blood;
He loved me ere I knew Him
And all my love is due Him,
He plunged me to victory,
Beneath the cleansing flood.

Jesus can heal us! He will heal our broken spirit, He will bring us back into fellowship with Him! The last sentence amazes me......And somehow Jesus came and brought to me the victory! There is nothing too big for the Lord to fix, and no heart too far gone for Him to cleanse! He will bring us victory, and make us whole!! Praise the Lord!

When we stop and think about TRUTH and what we know to be true about our Savior, there is no way that we can't stand in awe of Him! But it's when we let selfishness get in the way, and we choose to live for ourselves and not for Him, that our vision is clouded. We must DIE to ourselves EVERYDAY in order to live for Him!!!

This may seem a little random, but I hope it encourages you, I know it did me!

Well....I figured since I told some of you about the story of my 21st birthday that it was time to put some pictures up!! Well the night started with a dinner at Chili's.........

Me and Heather                             Me and Brett                                    Brett just being Brett....

Me and Brett                          Darla and Chuck                             Shannon using her "Tide to go Pen"

Joel, Me, Joye                                  Darla, Me, Chuck                          Shannon, Me, Jamie

Me and Darla                                          Me and Ashley                                        Heather and Me

 The last picture taken......before......the exciting night.........of...... drinking.............(Now let me explain before you get upset)

I was told to get in the car, and before I knew it....... I was covered in a blanket, given a coaster, and I was told I was not allowed to know where we were going!!!! Then the next thing I know.......everyone who was at Chili's was banging on the windows and askin me what I wanted to drink.....then the next thing I know.........I have a HUGE Lime-ade from Sonic. They made it a cherry one, with a TON of cherry in it, and it was gross, but they made me keep drinking........Then we start moving again, and we pull into another place, and we waited for a while, then.........the next thing I know.............. I had a rootbeer in my hand.....and they said "We're goin drinkin" and we continued on our way...... So now I had a lime-aid and a rootbeer, and I had to go to the bathroom so bad, which only made this night more fun for everyone around!!! (Except me!!!) Then we come to another stop, and they say......."Ok Heidi you have to get out but you can't look" So then..... This is me under the blanket, but Darla came to help after I had already started running into cars.....After a few minutes they let me take it off, and I found myself outside of starbucks!!! So we went into starbucks and my brother bought my favorite drink!!!

Jamie and Shannon enjoying starbucks!!                                                  The Last drink of the evening!!!

Once we got outside, What is a drink......without a "Cheers!"

And so ends my 21st birthday!!! I hope you enjoyed the story and the pictures!!! This definatly was a birthday to remember!!!! Thanks to all who were a part of it!

Well, as I look at my xanga, I realize its been a while since I've written!

Life is pretty busy here in sunny Florida!!! Lets see, Sights and Sounds is underway!! It is going great! The students are doing a great job! It's weird not being a part of it this year, but its neat to just watch the Lord work in the students lives and to watch people get saved!!! It amazes me!!

I had the chance to go home for Thanksgiving!!! It was wonderful!! I surprised my parents, and that made it all worth it!! I decided Wednesday (the day before Thanksgiving) that I wanted to go home, and I began to look at tickets thinking, there is NO way that I will be able to go home, especially the day of or the day before I wanted to go home, well none the less the Lord provided, and I bought my ticket Wednesday at 2 and flew out at 7 pm that night and it only cost me $89 round trip!!! Praise the Lord!!! It was great to be able to spend time with my family!!! It is neat to see how the Lord completely changed everyone in my family!!! Praise the Lord He doesn't give up on us, because I know for me there have been times that I have given up on myself, and the Lord hsa pulled me through!!!

Well today, I was talking to a very special lady to me, and it was neat how the Lord has really grown me this year, and just being able to talk to her showed me that God is faithful!!! We were talking about obedience and how sometimes it's hard and sometimes we don't understand but we still need to obey. Her new saying was "Obey now.....understand later" That is so true, on Sunday night my Pastor talked about Job, and he said that God has a right to do as He pleases, He has a right to be silent. So many times we just don't understand so we think we don't have to obey right now.....but delayed obedience is disobedience. I have learned that He never promices it would be easy, but He did say He would NEVER leave me or forsake me .......and if I think on truth, there is NOTHING else I need to know! The Lord has proved Himself faithful in ALL of our lives and now we need to TRUST Him!

The Lord has been so good to me! The road has been hard, but it has brought me closer to my Savior and I wouldn't trade that for anything!! Praise the Lord for His faithfulness, even when we lack in it!!